You will never know... how any times I cried myself to sleep at night.
How many fantasies I had....How broken I was....
My heart, soul, spirit, mind, essence of pure love.
You will never know about the scars carved into my heart.
The permanent marks tattooed there for all eternity by the absolute devastation of your loss.
You will never know....how I was saved by your oblivion.
How it healed me to see your mind empty of such monstrous cruelty.
And because you will never know....
I am saddened again for losing you once more.

© January 2, 2013  By Shea. All rights reserved